One of those days

I have a lot of different emotions running through me today. 

- It's Monday- yes a bad case of the been out of work for 4 days and now have to go to work case of the Mondays.

- It has been raining all day today (we needed it) but it still drains you.

- My grandfather is not doing any better- currently on a morphine drip and oxygen until he says it's time to go and he passes on

- We are 7 days away from Gabriella's 3rd birthday

Around this time I get a lot of those old feelings that come back from the time we were with Gabi.  It last a few weeks  (the week before and then throughout the 12 days she was with us)and I get back to "normal".

It is almost like a Loss Hangover.  Where your brain and emotions just bring back old thoughts.  Of course with my grandfather ill and close to death brings up the thought of death.

I am not in a funk or depressed- I am just here living life.  Should be an interesting next few days.  Let’s see what God has in store for me and my family.